[ he is aware how concerning it sounds but he says so many concerning things in a day it's like. what's new.
fixing him with a look when sidon says that, but it's fine. ]
Used to dream of it. All the time, I would see it when I closed my eyes, exactly how we'd left her in that frozen, terrible place. So I suppose it's nothing new. All it means is this place can see inside our dreams, make them reality - or feel as if they are reality.
[ yes indeed this just continues to be concerning. things like death do get stuck up in the brain pan, ready to rattle loose into the blood at any moment, but still. his expression does not read like he finds this to be a fun factoid, solemn. ]
"Interesting" is a word for it? It could just drive us to madness, if we're not careful.
...I'm sorry you had to see her that way. It's difficult enough to heal and let those memories age, without these tricks and illusions. [ to him it is firmly not 'reality,' but it does feel that way, intentionally. ]
[ life's a little easier when you learn to accept absurdity. that much is true, at least. ]
Yes. Though—I don't think it's that the wound closes, or that the hole ever fills? Time is... distance. Age.
[ it's not that memories heal, it's that you get older around them. like a tree growing new rings out instead of filling in hollow pockets of wood. some people grow slowly. some people rot out. ]
In my meager experience, "healing" is not how much pain you feel, but how often you feel it—expanding your life into new pools to spend less time in old ones. ...If you're constantly reminded of something, you can't be expected to find much peace from it, no matter how many years have passed.
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fixing him with a look when sidon says that, but it's fine. ]
Used to dream of it. All the time, I would see it when I closed my eyes, exactly how we'd left her in that frozen, terrible place. So I suppose it's nothing new. All it means is this place can see inside our dreams, make them reality - or feel as if they are reality.
And that's interestin', isn't it?
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"Interesting" is a word for it? It could just drive us to madness, if we're not careful.
...I'm sorry you had to see her that way. It's difficult enough to heal and let those memories age, without these tricks and illusions. [ to him it is firmly not 'reality,' but it does feel that way, intentionally. ]
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[ does it? anyway, he does look up at him when he says that second part. not the first time he's heard that advice. ]
And? In your experience, does the memory aging make it "heal"?
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Yes. Though—I don't think it's that the wound closes, or that the hole ever fills? Time is... distance. Age.
[ it's not that memories heal, it's that you get older around them. like a tree growing new rings out instead of filling in hollow pockets of wood. some people grow slowly. some people rot out. ]
In my meager experience, "healing" is not how much pain you feel, but how often you feel it—expanding your life into new pools to spend less time in old ones. ...If you're constantly reminded of something, you can't be expected to find much peace from it, no matter how many years have passed.